THESE brand new shoes are ruined, yet Dr Joshua Corsa will probably hang on to them as a reminder.
Dr Corsa works at the Orlando Regional Medical Center as a senior surgical resident, and he was working on Saturday night when a madman sprayed a torrent of bullets inside The Pulse, an LGBT nightclub.
Many were rushed to his hospital, and many of them depended on him to survive.
There are at least 50 confirmed dead, 53 injured, although some of those are in a critical condition.
The day after the horror, Dr Corsa reflected on the tragedy, brought home to him by his blood-soaked sneakers.
These are my work shoes from Saturday night. They are brand new, not even a week old. I came to work this morning and saw these in the corner my call room, next to the pile of dirty scrubs.
I had forgotten about them until now. On these shoes, soaked between its fibers, is the blood of 54 innocent human beings.
I don't know which were straight, which were gay, which were black, or which were hispanic.
What I do know is that they came to us in wave upon wave of suffering, screaming, and death.
And somehow, in that chaos, doctors, nurses, technicians, police, paramedics, and others, performed super human feats of compassion and care.
This blood, which poured out of those patients and soaked through my scrubs and shoes, will stain me forever. In these Rorschach patterns of red I will forever see their faces and the faces of those that gave everything they had in those dark hours.
There is still an enormous amount of work to be done. Some of that work will never end. And while I work I will continue to wear these shoes.
And when the last patient leaves our hospital, I will take them off, and I will keep them in my office.
I want to see them in front of me every time I go to work.
For on June 12, after the worst of humanity reared its evil head, I saw the best of humanity of come fighting right back. I never want to forget that night."
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